If it needs to, it will

I read just the headline of an online article that said something like "It's actually healthy for kids to throw tantrums" and I just glanced down at the first comments which were a bunch of eye roll/laugh emojis and one word exclamations.  We sure have a habit of dismissing deeper considerations, communicating on the thinnest surface, don't we?    

How honest we are as kids, and how pure our energy moves through its pathways at the same time.  Some of it is simply developmental, that our selves are learning how to move, react, respond, express in the new young body with this quickly changing voice.  And YES, it IS healthy for kids to be able to express as they develop.  Some of it is that, as kids, we haven't trained ourselves out of honesty yet, so what hurts hurts big, and what's funny is the funnest thing ever.  So alive!

Do you know how it is to witness a usually well-kept adult break in half?  Have you ever broken in half?  Completely against your training and will?  Kids do it and it's called "a tantrum" and adults who are terrified of their own possible/probably/inevitable breaking in half will quickly yank the kid up or hush them up.  What will people think of me?  Adults sometimes break in half, too.  If others see this, what do they do?  Call the police?  Turn away and make jokes?  Do something for distance.

To just BE with that full energy, that dam break that could not be contained... Does that make your belly ache or soften or tighten?  What about your heart?  I have no doubt that under the thin surface of all of us well-controlled, trained, presentable adults there's rumbling and wisdom that wants to let it all drop away.  We can practice our capacity to not turn away when energy moves.  It might be like a feather lifted off your shoulder and the world is totally open to you, finally.  There's a remembering of your true nature, and here you are, free.  If it comes by way of a breakdown tantrum, just stay with yourself through it and notice the freedom that's rushing open behind it.