It's a true honor to be with people who know they're dying, and this is part of my life now.  You know the saying, "Be with people as they are"?  When people have come to this place where they know they will die, or grappling with that idea in a body that is starting to stop working, still not knowing exactly what that means and will be, they're in a place I haven't come to yet.  My psyche has gone into this dive in various ways over my life, but my body has always been working well, so I have certainly not become that raw in vulnerability yet.  The people, just as they are, are my beautiful teachers and friends, even if we've only met for a few minutes.  I feel more love between each of them and me than the normal perspective on human love.  It's just there.

Sometimes our eyes meet... sometimes we stay in a place for a while together without anything other than there.  With nothing to do.  It's a wordless plane of existence while still here in the space and the time of a moment.  

Someone wrote the most beautiful description of the total eclipse. She talked about the quality of the light in that darkness, neither day nor night to the mind as we know light.  She used the words "completely rarified".  I recognize her description in my own experience of the total eclipse and in these grateful times with people who are close to death.  My friends.

We talk about AWE in these extraordinary experiences, and they are teachers for our minds.  There is AWE everywhere all the time.  It becomes more and more visible to us, feel-able to us, never graspable, never definable, owned by no one.  We're all gathered into AWE cleanly without residue, and even as we put words to it and say from our personal points of view how it was, it only opens and opens and opens us.  And we are friends in these impermanent bodies.

Sometimes in BCST sessions, we'll notice the arising of something familiar and historically daunting, triggering, but in that moment there's space for it to move without the usual fear reaction.  It can be something very unexpected.  A memory, body sensation, emotionally charged subconscious something.  Our mostly forgotten old fear that's still with us, waiting patiently to be met. 

We can't really plan or dictate our healing process.  It comes as it comes, under the right conditions. It's honest like that.  BCST is, to me, deep body-inclusive meditation.  It's a chance to allow these old haunts to move and begin to resolve.  The focus is on the health, the loving presence that is our true nature, and within that generous invitation, these old fears can come out of hiding.

There's more and more acknowledgement recently about the nature of diseases, like cancer.  I believe it was already known in us but we don't let ourselves know fully due to cultural norms.  What's known is that diseases are, or can be, the result of internalized and long-held trauma.  The contractions that have become normalized in us, that have become folded into our personalities, are suppressions of our natural flows and full human expression.  So, we hear more often these days, as culture is starting to understand it, that we all have little tumors and "diseases" within our bodies, and they self-heal when the conditions open up in us.  We do not always know about it, typically we don't know what's happening in our bodies and subconscious, but our nature is to be well and nature is always looking for opportunities to release suppressions, to flow and thrive. 

Meditation and practices like Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy are very supportive in making space for the subconscious to reveal and for the usual body resistances to soften and to notice the fresh breeze, a sense of lightness return to us.  An unbothered attitude in the face of something that used to feel threatening.  We feel taller, more grounded, more in our center, when these deep contractions let go.  More of our true nature gets to be at play in life.